Papers

Man the amount of papers! I think I have made it clear here in my blog, Yes the one I rarely post in, that I am a less is more kind a gal. That also goes for papers. This weekend we had to do our taxes. (We are self employed and filed an extension) and my goodness the amount of papers I had filed. So, in order to rid ourselves of some I called everyone and said please do NOT send us statements or bills. Please email all that to me. And I got rid of lots of papers. Then this morning I was working on my grocery/costco/walmart list and I wrote down a 3 ring binder to buy to print off all the email things I get that I love and want to save. Hmm. Yes I stopped myself crossed it off and said you know I will make a file in my email and save them there. They will be with me wherever I go and I won't have one more thing to keep track of. Yes, I am in a fall cleaning mode and stuff has to go. Less needs to come in. Are you a saver or a less is more person?

Thinking

I know I am a horrible blogger. I actually think of things to blog all the time but never get around to it. Now that my youngest is in school all day though I don't have an excuse. Yes I am filling my time. However, I am in no way busy. I have time to work out. Wander through stores and just look. Look through my boards at all I have pinned on pinterest. We have tried some new recipes. Some good and some are no longer on my board. But that brings me to my thoughts for tonight. When you moved out for the first time, yes I would say college would count, how did you decorate? My little sister just moved out. Her and her roommate are coordinating things and making it look so cute. All kinds of pinterest ideas in there duplex. So here is my question. Are you just a decorator or not? I remember my first apartment. We bought a used couch and table. I bought cheap silverware and all that and took whatever freebies I could get. I think my mom gave me a few towels and we just mixed and matched. I don't even think we had pictures on the wall. Fast forward to my life. I have a style. It is called relaxed/ modern/livable/craftsman. So basically I decorate very simple. I can't have to much stuff. It may sound weird but it causes me anxiety. I love pinterest and all the ideas. But other than the recipes and some of the kid crafts not much of that stuff will ever be done in my home. I love my matching couches and recliner. I love my modern looking tv stand. I love that the only pictures on my walls are of my family. So, I think I am just not a decorator. I know what I like and it isn't that. I love having a clean and tidy house and don't like having projects all over. If I start something I will finish it very soon. Would love to hear your style and if it has changed as you have gotten older and as your situation has changed. Just my thoughts for the night.

Worry

Any of you that are parents or human for that matter have worried. If you haven't, wow, I am impressed. I prayed all night. I am tired and I just got up. You see I am a cautious parent. I like to make sure my kids are protected from things. Now that being said I don't mean I keep them from getting dirty, climbing trees or jumping on the trampoline. I mean I am more nervous about people. I tend to have playdates at my house instead of having kids go to homes I don't know well. So, today I am breaking that and needless to say I didn't sleep. Brayden is going to a boys home after school. I have gotten to know his mom. She also works at the school with me. Very nice lady. I however, haven't ever talked to her about what they allow. Not that I wouldn't be concerned if it was Riley. But boys are different. I don't know if this boy has been exposed to pornography, violent video games. I know we have taught Brayden. However, when he isn't with you who know what he will choose. He is a very cautious, sensitive kids so I am hoping if he feels awkward or uncomfortable he will call right away. I will for sure remind him about that before he goes to school. I have just been praying that if my worry is actually an intuition something will happen that will protect him from going there. I also pray Brayden can be strong, stand up for what he knows is right. And that I will never do this again! Have a great day.

Wow, January 2013. I am really believing the saying of as you get older time goes faster. I am really feeling that. 2012 was a great year for our family. Can't say one thing specifically. It was just a great year. My daughter turned 5. Son turned 8. My husband is flourishing in business and in his role as 1st Sgt in his new battalion. Riley is in Kindergarten. Brayden is in 3rd grade. Both have amazing teachers. My sister left to work in Iraq. Yep she is an amazing young lady who will be 22 this coming Saturday. My youngest brother is working for my dad and doing great. He is a huge help to me with Riley when I am subbing or cleaning a house and need him to pick her up. My other brother and his wife surprised us at mother's day announcing that they are having twins!! Yep and they gave us 2 beautiful little boys on November 14. They are so sweet. We hadn't seen Jim's sister in 5 years due to choices she was making. But she is clean and sober and doing awesome now. She has a little boy Daniel who is 2. Very sweet little one. Spending time with them at Christmas and Thanksgiving was a big treat. I mentioned it earlier but I have been able to get on with Salem Keizer schools as a Substitute aid. I have only subbed at the kids school but I really enjoy it and would love for it to turn into something more permanent. I have also learned some things about myself. I really struggle with saying no. Not to my children. I feel like I say it to often to them. But to others. Can you do this today? Of course I can. So that is something I am really working on. Something else I have been reminded of. I like the idea of a dog. We have a dog and she is great. She is outside and pretty good with life. However, she has nipped at a few people this year and that stresses me out. I love being the place where kids come to play. I just never want it to be a scary place for kids. Jim and I also thought we might like a small dog some day. Well, we have been dog sitting for a family and this small dog thing isn't us either. He follows me EVERYWHERE!! Driving me crazy. He yaps at everything and chases my sweet kitty. Both our kids are sick of him jumping on them and trying to lick them. It doesn't help that they are sick and just want to be left alone. I actually did something I have never done before. I backed out of my commitment. I mean sure we have canceled things before but never in the middle of doing it walked away. I called the family yesterday and asked if there was possibly anyone else to watch him. With the kids sick and him yapping. It was just time to be done. So, he goes to his grandmas house this morning. I am so ready. I will get to sleep with out him right beside me and let my kids just cuddle with their cat and not have him chasing the cat. They can just focus on rest and getting better. So, in looking at this new year. It is going to be a good one. Excited to see how it turns out. I just hope we do it healthy!