Childcare and my son

It has been decided that I am going to stop doing childcare. With Jim's upcoming deployment we just thought it is better for us to spend as much time as we can together and with childcare that is tough. We don't have the availabilty to just go and do what ever when we want. So, in a couple weeks I will be done. I have also realized something about myself. I love kids but don't think childcare is for me. I was feeling like I maybe didn't like kids as much as I always thought. But I have realized it is okay to like other kids but not want them in my home everyday. With that said I told Brayden today that Aubrey wasn't going to be coming much anymore. (I have told them I would be there back up) He was really sad. Now I knew he enjoyed having her but I didn't realize how much. So, tonight he had gone to bed and I went in to talk to him and he asked again why she was going to be going to someone elses house. I came up with a different way to explain it and I said well you know daddy has to go on a really long army trip? Yes. Well, we want to be able to spend as much time with daddy as we can before his trip and if Aubrey is here we can't go to the beach and Sunriver and all that. So, Aubrey will still come sometimes and we can meet her at the Library for storytime. And she will still be our friend and we will still pray for Aubrey. And he was okay with that answer. Then he says, Aubrey needs to ask Jesus into her heart. Then she can be in Heaven with us. I was so happy. I am so glad that he cares. I have really been praying for that. But, also talking about it with him. I know they are also talking about sharing your faith in Sunday school and it just makes me so happy that he is listening. He also said he is excited to get to Heaven when he gets older and he wants to give Jesus a big hug, cause Jesus gives the best hugs. Oh my heart is so happy right now.

Sleeping

Okay so from the start my kids don't sleep long periods of time at night. People would tell me how there kids would sleep through the night at 2 months and what not but not mine. Now I know part of that is my fault. I couldn't just let them cry. In my mind if my child is crying they need me. I also nurse and felt like if they were hungry then I would feed them. Brayden now is a great sleeper and only occasionally wakes at night and usually it is because of a bad dream of needing to go to the bathroom. Riley is almost 11 months and was still nursing several times a night. I was starting to get nervous because I am looking towards weaning her and didn't know how that would go. She does fine without nursing before nap during the day and what not. Well, last night she only woke up 2 times and only nursed once. She is doing great tonight as well. I think another thing I am doing is not jumping as fast. I hear her moaning and moving around in there and I used to jump up and get her and feed her right away and then I knew we would all sleep again. I am letting her moan for at least 5 or 10 min. and then go in if she is actually crying. Well, it seems to be working. So, now to all of you who are saying wow just let them cry it out. I can't. I just can't. And for those of you who have looked at the posting time for this and said if your kids are sleeping why are you up? I am on my way. I just was listening to my precious little one moan and thought I should post this now. Otherwise it becomes like so many other posts and just stays in my head.

Updates

So, nothing major has been going on. Except that my little girl is growing up so fast. She will be 11 months on Sunday and she loves to babble and she is walking and she is so proud of herself at being able to climb into her rocking chair and rock. Brayden has decided he wants to go to Preschool. I wasn't going to push him into it but, he brought it up. So, we are going to go and take a look at the Church down the hill. It is hard for me. What a crazy year that will be. My husband heads of on a deployment again, my little boy goes to preschool and my baby girl is going to be one. Why does time have to go so fast?
Here are some pictures of my sweethearts.